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Koharu became to say
goodbye toward Mutso-san
many times regrettably.

While watching Koharu,
Mutsuo-san came to think that
Koharu is afflicted with him.

Mutsuo-san told me.

"I want to be with Koharu.

But if being together makes
Koharu feel hurt,

I think it's my selfishness
to keep in touch with her..."

After such conversion,
Mutso-san finally agreed to Koharu
and said,
"I understood what you said, so
I think about it".

Then, Koharu nodded deeply and
silently.

Mutsuo-san confirmed that
what Koharu said to take apart from him
was told by her true emotion.

And I was told by Mutsuo-san
"I was separated from Koharu."

“Saki-san helped me so much
that I couldn't help but thank you...

Eventually, I afflicted Koharu, so

I'm sorry for this result.''

I told to him,
"Please don't be apologized.
It's not Mutsuo-san's fault."

After a while, I heard from Koharu that
they broke up.

Koharu tended to be gloomy
after she aparted with Mutsuo-san.

And after breaking up,
she was completely depressed.

She almost no longer
came out from her own room.

She even couldn't had
the food I prepared.

I thought it was because
the taste of my cooking wasn't good.

Thus, I purchased the menu
which Koharu used to like and eat.

However, it was also
left in front of the Koharu's room
without any touching.

She may be imagined that
I would eat what she left behind.

I think she was careful about that.

Thus, I told Koharu through the door.

"Please eat, please."

The next day, I bought the same takeout
and kept it in front of Koharu's room.

It was eaten a little by her.

The sale of her online shop for clothes
has been temporarily suspended.

With my salary alone,
the lives of us can be managed.

Thus, I was hoping Koharu to
have a rest until her mental wound heals.

However, this is the first time that
Koharu has been so depressed.

Until now, Koharu was able to act tough
even if something that
seemed sorrowful happened.

Through these sequence,
the current situation must be
quite serious.

It has been two weeks
since Koharu became like a withdrawal.

I call her,
"Koharu"

but she said nothing,
"..."

I also tried to contact with her and said,
"Can I open the door?"

Then, she replied,
"Sorry, but no."

It was like this.

Even if I try to talk to her,
she doesn't reply.

Opening the door is also rejected.

I thought about what I could do.

I went to see Mutsuo-san.

I met him and tried to persuade him.

However, Mutsuo-san was
feeling overwhelmed
by his own powerlessness.

He murmured,
"I can only make Koharu feel hurt."

Even if I denied it and said,
"It's not true!"

He added,
"Actually, I don't think
I'm eligible to meet Koharu anymore."

I thought that he was talking about
making a loud voice and
frightening Koharu.

Mutsuo-san continued this way.

"Above all, Koharu doesn't desire me...
I don't want to hurt Koharu anymore.''

I told Mutsuo-san about
the current state of Koharu.

Mutsuo-san looked very
worried about her.

After that, Mutsuo-san tweeted.

"Koharu is strong..."

I also know that Koharu is strong.

Koharu is strong,
contrary to her cute appearance.

She was always positive,
even though she had some
serious symptoms.

She has made a lot of efforts.

However, I also know that
there is a deep mental wound
that prevents us from
making a normal decision.

I want to believe in
the strength of Koharu.

But now, Koharu is the same as
my mother at that time.

If I leave it as it is,
she may go the same way
as my mother.

If that happens, I am the one
who has to do something.

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