S

The moment you saw me,
you throw a glorious smile that killed me.
I could linger at that glimpse forever,
savor the unexpected ecstasy, repeatedly.
But greed is the key to humanity,
Aren't we all pining for something more?
it's about time, withdrawal is start showing,
I need my annual (unfortunately turns into biennial) recharge, "my fix".
Seeking the possibility to collect another precious moment,
that help me get through another year.

Yet now, life is kinda push me towards the edge,
I feel vulnerable and depressed against the malicious of humanity,
the horror of 2020.
Help, S, I need a little feed back, please,
just a little word is enough,
to help me hang on and get through this.
but I'll understand, if you can't.
at least I need to try.